i hate this myself. and this feeling that haunts me.
i wish i never told you i want to be with you again.
cause then, you wont have to suffer again when i go away.
why do everything happen, right after i decided to leave everything behind.
i love you, you know i do.
even though after everything, you are the only thing i could never really leave behind.
i knew i would miss you, but i still did not care.
cause i knew, we were never meant for each other.
or so i thought.
my world is crumbling.
the fact that i have to say goodbye to you again, haunts me once again.
i hate goodbyes, especially when you are the one i am leaving.
i really just hope, you will slowly learn to live without me.
cause, i know, i am slowly hurting you if this goes on.
if only lies could make things better.
if only you knew.