Re-watching 1N2D S3 reminds me of why I have such fondness for this show. Especially for KJH.

This show carried me through one of the roughest times of my life.

This is also why KJH's passing was so hard for me till this day.

It was them that carried me through my depression phase.

It was this laughter and ridiculousness that reminds me that life does not have to be so grim.

And yet such a person passed so early.

Life is never fair. This is one of those times that I truly feel so. 

感觉好像什么都没变过。

还是一样的觉得，

消失最好。

死了更好。

If I had one wish, it would be something that I have decided a long time ago.

It would be something that I have longed, but yet lack the decisiveness to pull it off.

It would be something so taboo that no one speaks about it.

It would be something so simple that everyone will face it sooner or later,

but yet I would prefer to get over it as soon as possible.

It would be as simple as death itself.

新的一年。

又是时候从新评估自己的存在价值。