僕が死のうと思ったのは
曾經我也想過一了百了

Maybe it isn't that I want to die.

Maybe I just don't want to exist.

We're in a world full of people, yet I'm feeling so lonely

If only I could tell myself there's plenty fish in the sea

But see the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies and greed

And as I find myself drowning while I'm fighting to breathe

还是死掉算了

如果有一天，

我有了絕症，

我肯定是這世界唯一一個覺得開心的人。

It has been a while since i had this feeling,

or should I say it has been a while since i wrote about this feeling,

this god damn feeling of defeat, helplessness.

I'm not even going to be self conceited and say I have depression cause I know there are others out there that have it worse than me. 

But everyday I'm here thinking do i deserve to stay alive?