很痛苦，却不让你知道。

当一切都太迟了，

才发现有很多的来不及。

来不及对你说对不起，

来不及对你说我爱你，

来不及，太多来不及。

depression is like solitary confinement,
you know there are others out there,
but it doesn't help.

somethings never change.

想让你幸福，

却狠不下心，

让你自由，

不需背着我这个包袱。

还以为稍微好了，
其实还没。

可能，我的存在，
已经是最大的错误。

There is still time to forget me.

The reason i like to take photos rather than being in them.

对不起。
到今天，
我还是不能对你说，
我心里有多痛苦。

最怕的那一天，终于要来了。

看来，7年了，什么都没变。

一生人最想听的骗话。

对不起。

事实是我还没忘记那天的心碎。

事实是我还没完全原谅我自己。

事实是我每天都在忍着痛，不和你说。

对不起，真的很抱歉。

the reason you cant be happy is me.

i am sorry.
you dont deserve this.

reality hurts.

I wanna to start by letting you know this
Because of you my life has a purpose
You helped me be who i am today
I see myself in every word you say
Sometimes it feels like nobody gets me
Trapped in a world where everyone hates me
There's so much that I'm going through
I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you

I was broken
I was choking
I was lost
This song saved my life
I was bleeding
Stopped believing
Could have died
This song saved my life
I was down
I was drowning
But it came on just in time
This song saved my life

Sometimes I feel like you've known me forever
You always know how to make me feel better
Because of you, my dad and me
Are so much closer than we used to be
You're my escape when I'm stuck in a small town
I turn you up whenever I feel down
You let me know like no one else
That it's OK to be myself

You'll never know what it means to me
That I'm not alone
That I'll never have to be

-This song saved my life, Simple Plan

i regret everything.
everything about my life is nothing but regrets.
there is nothing left for me to reminisce.
nothing but the regrets i accumulated.

Slowly but surely removing human contact from my life.

半年了。

渐渐地忘了。

思念的痛，
没人比我更清楚。

每天挣扎，

想要坚强，

却忍不住哭了。

Only pain and suffering.

i dont think i can take this much longer.

wasted my time achieving nothing. such a failure.

这忐忑不安的心情，
真是难受。
失败。真失败。

多的是你不知道的事。

‘時間是最有效的特效藥’
狗屁。

alone in a crowd.
as always.

一事無成

希望有人找到我。

卻深深地相信這不會發生。

we never should have.

真的好想放棄，
放棄一切。

yes.

你會不會好像七年前一樣，
離開我的對吧？

蒙蒙的细雨，拍打在我的脸上；
我已经分不清，是雨水还是泪水。

可能，我不會在你身邊。
或許，我會慢慢消失。

今天才發現，
我已經不是以前那個我了。
很想快樂，
卻沒辦法快樂。
永遠無法擺脫這個事實。

你恨我嗎？

我明白，卻無能為力。

我愛你。

對不起。

今天發現，你對我慢慢的失去信任。

我卻不怪你。

alone again,
alone forever.

當你真正的無能為力時，
就連道歉，也微不足道。

everywhere i go, it's the same story.

maybe not even you.

maybe its because i have nothing left...

life no longer has meaning.

今天發現了人生的殘酷。
也好，消失更好。
good riddance.

我知道你很痛苦，

可是，我卻無能為力。

I am all alone.

In this shaken, twisted world, I gradually become transparent, unable to be seen.
Please don't bother looking for me; don't stare at me..
I merely don't want to hurt you, inside a world, that came out of someone's imagination.
So please remember me; as vivid as I was.

 

對不起...

i broke down once,
no one gave a shit,
and that's when i promised myself
i will never break down in front of others ever again.

i am broken.
i need help.

It's almost like no one cares anymore. 

Actually, it is exactly what it is.

failure.

if you are happy,
i am.

i deserve this.
i don't want to be in pain,
i don't want to be miserable,
but we can't always get what we want.

there are times i wish i have no memories. 

there are times i wish i could just wake up everyday, forgetting yesterday.

there are times i wish there was no pain, no sadness. 

i wish i could.