it's not fun losing friends.
but if anyone been through what i have been through,
then you will understand why i did what i did.
its no longer a choice to me,
its a reflex,
a reflex to protect myself.
its a risk i rather take,
than to be hurt once more.
i am not trying to explain to anyone, or to myself,
i am trying to remind myself,
you are suffering,
but its only temporary.