i can run a millions simulations for our future,

yet every time i think of a future without you,

i'd hit a wall. 

i can never think of a world without you.

but yet, here i am,

thinking about letting go. 

i know you'd get hurt. 

but its only temporary.

with me gone,

gone from your life,

gone from this world,

everything would change for the better. 

i wish none of this would every happen.

i wish i never told you i love you.

i wish you'd never fall in love with me.

i wish you will always be happy, even without me.

its all my fault.
i don't know how long i can keep this up anymore.

i am sorry.

本当にごめんなさい。