Is this the happy ending i dreamt about?
Or is this just another dream, another illusion?
I've am always grateful that you are here with me,
but yet the same problems plagued my mind every day, every minute, every second.
Am i really happy?
Do i deserve to be happy?
Everyday i ask the same questions, and arrive at the same answers.
Am i really happy? Yes
Do i deserve to be happy? No

对不起，总是把烦恼来在你身上。
其实我懂，你对我很好。
我最不能原谅的，只不过是我自己。
不能原谅，当年丢下你不管，
当年你最需要我的时候，我不在。
对不起，我最不应该，在你爸走的时候，
我却什么都做不到，帮不到，不在你身边支持你。

If only you knew.
If only i would make up my mind, and leave for good.
If only i would just drop dead.